It is sad, LFF, but I would never want to forget John and how much he meant to us all. My son wrote a bit about him in his first book, "Knowing Darkness." What he wrote about John was an imaginary conversation he, his fellow postulant monk, Jerome, John and a few others in that group of teen-agers-reaching-twenty used to have regularly, when young adults are beginning to figure the world out and to face what being an adult means. I love that book; I think it's my favorite of Addison's books. His marriage had just failed (his wife has a mental illness and was trying to kill him) when he wrote it. He and Jerome had left the Episcopal convent when the abbot died and he, Addison, subsequently became an Anglican priest. He wrote "Knowing Darkness" some 28 years later after the divorce.